july the 1st
I don't think I anticipated the extent to which my heart already has grown. Just from one day. Just IN one day.
I would say that I, in my small world, tried to keep my expectations small. So when I was greeted with a big warm hug, introduced to fellow DTS girls, given the "tour" of the dorm - thanks Beth!! - I never really thought about it is this way. It is so different... so new, so unfamiliar. It's SO REFRESHING to be LEARNING things. Learning the area around me. The buildings and campus layout, the walkway to food - because yes I love food and that's important to know :) - the staff, the dorm, the lovely fellow dorm dwelling friends I have made and will learn and grow with for the next few months! So much, yet only a little.
I am so thankful that my drive over here went safely. There were numerous large accidents on the way causing lots of traffic. Mainly the cause of the sudden deluge of rain today, the roads being slick and not running off the water fast enough. It was a bit of a challenge driving through Dallas in heavy traffic and pouring rain, but I made it and I am thankful I was safe!
Thunderstorms and heavy rain were my driving companions along with the traffic. Mist from moving vehicles just seemed to swirl and spray like the tail of a comet behind cars.
Sometimes I just get so discontent when something hinders my driving. I noticed that today. Here I was. Stuck in stop and go traffic for thirty minutes, rain pouring and podcast on the fourth episode because it gave me a bit of a mental distraction. I sat there just waiting and really truly wondered. Do I really appear that impatient? AM I really that impatient? I stopped drumming my fingers. Stopped, consciously thinking negatively about my being stuck in traffic, the fact that my leg wouldn't stop cramping and the small creeping in voice that said all of this was a bad idea.
Sure. Many things have been blocking me the last few days. The attack has been real. Friends spiritual warfare is so real, it affects your mind and emotions and even your physical strength and health. Yesterday, I felt like I was going to just collapse under some kind of heavy weight all day. It was hard to just keep going and pushing and doing all the things and preparation and packing. It really was hard. All in all......
I MADE IT!!!! And I got hugs and hugs when I got here. Everyone was welcoming - AHEM IS WELCOMING!!!
july 2nd 2017
It's humid. But I knew it would be.
It's green. Which I love.
It's hilly. Which is one of my favorite things. It's not flat. There are grassy hills and trees.
july 3rd 2017
It's cooler today. Still overcast, and we're all thankful it's not blistering hot.
Today is day one of orientation, and I find out what my work on campus will be, and a ton of other information.
Last night was purely fellowship. We had our reception for dts, and then family night which is kind of like a church service.
july 6th 2017
The indescribable boldness and courage that comes when we lay aside thoughts, ideas, desires - declare the enemy to leave and claim victory over him - gather, be still before the Lord and wait for Him to speak to us. That, is what I experienced. The unbelievable power of the Lord giving us words and pictures and impressions. The strength of mighty prayer going out from each of us one after another claiming healing, restoration, deliverance, strength, joy, hope for the things He has laid in our minds to pray over. God is awesome and unmatched in His ways.
I have prayed and talked to my Father today as I have never before done. Speaking in faith, boldness and complete peace as I have never done before. My mind is flooding and running over with awe at His power and mystery today.
What started as a day I battled, fought - every moment - to remain in His peace and strength and not my own, He has turned into one of the most awe inspiring days of my life. I always knew that prayer was a powerful aspect of life.
Little did I know how HUGE prayer and intercession really is and how incredible it really is to be able to talk to the One who created the heavens and the earth. Who holds the universe. Who formed me in my mothers womb and knew me before anyone else. Who thought about me long before I was conceived or born. He KNEW me so intimately that He wanted ME here. He wanted my personality, my laugh, my story, my ideas and dreams and life HERE.
july 7th 2017
You know, those times when we realize just how small we are. HOW MIGHTY God is. How BLESSED we are to have Him as our Father.
Today has me truly feeling blessed.
I woke up to see part of the sunrise - which was BEAUTIFUL. It’s been overcast for the past week, but clearing up in the afternoons. Yesterday featured a beautiful sunny morning, and a thunderstorm and pouring deluge of rain in the afternoon.
pool party fun!!
This first week has held laughter, tears, lots of worship, prayer and growth. This place is beautiful, my eyes seem to feast on the blooms and green, the trees.. the sunrises and sunsets. It's like I've hidden away from God's incredible world for so long, every bird song, every breeze, every cloud that graces the skies. There are moments where my head is exploding with all sorts of dreams I tucked away when I was a young girl. Like all the hardships and hills and valleys of the last few years of my life got stripped away and it's back to the basics of Christy Anne.
Like I'm relearning - being guided by my heavenly Father - what it's like to be free of the bondages of fear and despair. The chains of yesterday falling away and a renewing of hope and passion pouring out. Going outside of my comfort zone - worshiping with abandon. All those times I stayed inside my shell, hands at my sides, when in me - my hands were reaching, reaching for Jesus and longing to stand with my heart wide open before Him. I feel at home, singing until I have no more voice in me, hands lifted, face lifted towards heaven - smiling, grinning, laughing in front of my Savior. Looking toward Him with joy, and knowing I am a beautiful daughter to Him. He is pleased, He is overjoyed to spend time with me and He is waiting, always waiting for me to talk to Him.
It's a little hard to have alone time on campus, as everyone knows - but I've managed to sneak a couple of quiet alone time walks in, and it's amazing how refreshing it all is. Even at the hottest part of the day, His creation that surrounds me just floors my lofty dreamy head and causes me to want to run and dance like the little girl I once was. It's like my daughters' heart is awakened because He is calling it out, romancing it and bringing it out everyday - in a new way.